Bleargh!!

I woke up this morning with an achy back, think it could be due to the downpour yesterday night.

I woke up this morning feeling stupid that I did not take up MediaCorp's offer. I was angry with myself.
Really. I'm always so fickle minded. Its true SPH people... Its true Marc, you've all proved me right.
Guess this time round, I had to pay the consequences. I never really realized how fickle I could get until now.
I've always been interested in the media industry.
Since I left secondary school, I wanted to study Media Communications. Till now, I still wanted to do that for my degree.
But just THAT fateful morning, when I thought that pay was more important to me than anything else.
And plus the "Its a contract job" thing.
I turned the offer down.
GOsh!!
I did not know what I was doing.
But I guess this is a lesson learnt hard.


I left the house this morning, only to come running home fifteen minutes later because of a very bad stomach.
Could have been that sour cheesecake I had this morning.

I opened my email this morning to find that SPH had rejected me. I knew this was coming, when yesterday SaraAnn told me she got a place in there., when last week, she told me that she got asked to go down for rounds of interviews.But I guess, it was hard for me to swallow. I was over-confident.

Over confident that I turned down MediaCorp's offer. Thinking that the pay was too low, and that it couldn't offer me a secure position. But Heck! Why do I mind so much about the position when I'm still so young and should grab all available opportunities. When it concerns about my passion and interest. I think this is the first time ever, I feel so stupid and angry at myself. Really. really Really.

This is the worst morning I've ever had in months.